JR is in Toronto with Grandma Lois, Zayde and Jolene. And the funny thing is, I needed a break, I wanted a break. I get overwhelmed with this life whatever it is, and I miss the old - the parties, concerts, martinis for dinner, take out everything, coffee breaks, music. So the babes go for a refresher and I spend the ENTIRE time they’re away totally consumed with how much I miss them – what are they doing, are they having fun, are the snacks as much fun as snacks with me…oh, lord. It’s SO weird – who am I? I need time for ME , I scream silently, then it’s here, upon me, time for just little ol’ me and I want them back almost immediatley. It’s such a short time in my life. He’s 3, she’s 18months. This weekend Jolene will be 19 months and never again will I have a moment with her at 18months. Gone. Life is a series of lovely moments in time and if you miss that time, bypass moments, what’s left without them? I’ve lived an interesting life for me, I felt rather well rounded in the realm of life experiences when JR came along but every now I then I get sidetracked, I miss the past… yet there ain’t no way I’d give up what I have now just to taste the past. Lovely memories and I miss the crazy cats I used to play with but….that little guy, my little dude, the eyes, expressions, somersaults…I can’t imagine being without him. On that note, I have to shower and go see him because my heart is aching. Squeeze!
Here are two pictures JR took this summer….I have to say, the dude has an interesting eye. First up, The Boot. Bridge, water, water greens, a little yellow boot. Very simple but I like how it triggers my memory of two very lovely people, Ed & Marie. Cool neighbours, interesting stories, generous. ‘Ol Blackie meets The Beads follows….the picture speaks for itself.
so super cute, those pics!
i know exactly how you feel about the paradox of missing the past yet trying to hold onto the fleeting moments of the present. xo